Realising Those That Have Been There All Along

 You have  friends some new, and some old, and some that havent left your side, the ones you have grown up around. They are the ones that mean the most, they are the ones you have experienced most of your life with at school. You see these friends pretty much everyday but, sometimes you see them but you dont really notice them. They are there always just friends. But somtimes amidst all the drama of life things change, and suddenly everything in your life is simply perfect, you dont know why but you dont question your happiness. Your life is now filled with smiles and laughter.

Just then when your life is at its peak you notice things you never really noticed before. You notice when things are out of place, and your friends dont seem themselves.This is the moment you realise the effect that searching for happiness in life has; not noticing important things about friends and family that you failed to see before. This is the moment your life becomes a fairytale. 

You always think about wether you would go out with one of your friends but; you  never if you will, and who? "The say a relationship is friendship on fire" that is the case most times. You dont simply  have a relationship with someone you bearly know and doesnt know you.You dont go out with people just because of their appearance, you go out becasue you are friends, because you share the same interests, and together you have realised what a good friend each other are.The fact that they actually mean alot to you, the fact that they make you happy no matter what, the fact that you enjoy their company, and that no matter what you will always be friends. Right in the middle of your ordinary life everything turns amazing, everything good seems to be happening

.To top it all off you notice one of your friends that you never saw as anything more than a friend, but now you see that you do have feeling. That all your closests friends that know you best, keep telling you how cute you would  be together and that he would be crazy not to like you. Then your family says how much they like him too. Thats when you get the hint that everyone notices you's and thinks the exact same, thats when you realise exactly what everyone else sees and you feel the same way. But at that moment of realisation you are to afraid to tell them; you question yourself;do they want to be more than friends? do they even like me? do they feel the way i do? You are scared to confront them of your feelings afraid they dont feel the same.

Instead you hide those feelings and what everyone else feels petrified of ruining your friendship from that awkward situation were you built up the courage to tell them how you feel. You know just recently they liked someone else but do they still like them? Have they moved on? You dont want to lose a friend so you sit back as a spectator unaware of how the feel. But if you dont tell them they will go on with their life, and fall in love with somebody else,  never getting the chance to tell him how you feel before its to late.You never get the chance to hear what he feels.In the meantime you cotinue living like nothing has changed but every time you see him; every times he waves and says hello, every time he smiles you cant help but smile too, and you cant help but feel the way you do.

To afraid to tell him,you send a close friend that you know you can trust to find out, so you dont make a fool of yourself. Thats when times get stressful you wait, and think all night about what there going to say. You continuously play it over in your mind before you go to sleeping tossing between the two outcomes. Tonight I will do that yet again, but this time ill hope for the best and wish on stars and dream on the future.